Our garden

Hello dear readers.... well it's been awhile since I've posted anything to do with our house... and as part of my new 'inner harmony' kick I'm on - and given it's such a gorgeous time of the year - I'm trying to spend at least 10 minutes in the garden each day to 'decompress'. You may remember when we first moved in, the extensive landscaping we had done to 'tier' the backyard and make it a bit more user-friendly... if not, see here and here and here.

I have to confess that the vegie patch never really eventuated. Our backyard cops the full force of the afternoon queensland sun AND backing on to a reserve we seem to have our fair share of possums and other wildlife that LOVED my crops as soon as they used to come to fruition, so I gave that away for now. However, here are some recent pics of the planted gardens.... as you can see, it will be a lot of hard work to get this fully planted up and looking good by September 2012, which is my goal... but I'm getting there.

Five years, 4 months and 3 days

.... after she's born and I finally get around to putting the first picture on my pregnant belly cast that Sharon helped me to make all those years ago.... stay tuned for pics.

Remembering my mum as I wash my girls' faces

Ok.... so a few weeks ago, I'm washing the girls' faces in the bath using a washer with some cartoons on them. I have a variety of these.. some are fish, some are bunnies, some are kittens and dogs or whatever and they are in a rainbow assortment of colours.

the funny thing is, I didn't get these washers after the girls were born, I wasn't even given these washers as a baby shower gift. My mum gave me these washers sometime after I'd moved out of home and was living with Dave - before we were married I think (yes we lived in sin shock horror lol) - it may have been the year before she died, I can't really remember. I DO remember however thinking, "oh my goodness, I'm in my late 20's... why on earth is my mum giving me cartoon face cloths for goodness sake?".... I remember that I must have had a confused look on my face and she laughed and said "don't take it too seriously, I saw them at a market and I thought they were cute and you could use them". I don't remember what I said. But cartoon face cloths? Ok mum... thanks. Giggle. She used to give some strange and fun presents so it was no big deal.

It was not until I was scrubbing the paint from my daughter's face - with one of these cartoon washers - that it occurred to me that maybe she gave them to me, knowing full well that she would never meet her grandchildren... would never get to give them a bath or read them bed time stories. It has just occurred to me that my mum gave me cartoon washers when I was 27 years old knowing that one day I would be washing their faces with them... and I'd think of her... and I'd smile. Yes... I think that's what she was doing.

2 year anniversary...

Hello dear readers... no not a two year anniversary of a relationship readers but a 2 year anniversary celebrating the life that is... but nearly wasn't. Two years ago to this day I was hovering somewhere in a sub-38 degree celsius induced coma after suffering a fatal/near fatal cardiac arrest. Today has been emotional and to be honest it hit me out of the blue... to be honest I'm beginning to wonder whether I'm really as insightful as I've always thought i was.... hmm.

I spent the day with my girls but without my husband as he's on call for work. Parks, picnics, playing and all the while all I could think about what that this was my second chance. The universe has allowed me to see them aged 3 and 5.... when in reality if it weren't for some stroke of universal luck/ fate / god's hand/ what have you... I may have ceased to have seen their lives beyond 1 and 3........ today that hit me full force and I've downed at least a bottle of wine, bathed in a hot radox bath and kissed them 1000 times before tucking them into bed...... and I'm still a little shaky. I sense that sleep may not come easy tonight... so many possibilities are swirling through my head and while I know the 'what if' game is pointless, tonight I am playing it nonetheless.

Sweet dreams.

xo