Things I would tell my Mum this Christmas if she were here

Michelle you've inspired me. What a wonderful idea. Things I would tell my Mum if she were here this Christmas - oh my gosh, where do I begin?

Mum, meet your grand-daughter Charlotte. She is beautiful and I know you would love her very much.

I promise to instil in her all the wonder and amazement of Christmas that you instilled in me for all those years

I watch the DVD we made for you often. It still amazes me when I see you with me as a baby and my breathe catches in my throat for a moment as realisation dawns that I am now a Mum.

I keep in touch with my godparents often. They are my supports now that you are not here.

I miss you every day.

The nurses at Mt Olivet think you sent me a beautiful daughter.

One day I will finish this PhD. It will be dedicated to you - the strongest role model a girl could ever have.

Libby and I are once again as thick as thieves. We talk of you often. The physical distance between us does nothing to dampen our support of each other (though we could handle being able to have a wine together a little more often :)

Christmas has never been the same since you went away. I hope as Charlotte gets older I can re-capture some of that Christmas spirit.

I haven't spoken to Desley since you died - I hope you can understand why.

My friends are my family - I have some amazing friends. You would love them. They look out for me.

I hope that Scamp found you wherever you are. We miss him every day too. When Charlotte is being 'naughty' we think of Scamp. We're pretty sure she is Scamp re-incarnated ;)

I could write a book on things I would say to you this Christmas if you were here.

I love you.